十一翎的天空

Nah it was really the first paper for the year but for this semester instead. 

I screwed it. 

距离上个文章也有一个月多的时间，时光飞逝，过程中发生了不少事情吧。

*叹气*

Over the past few days even though I brought my study materials along, I didn't follow up very closely with my study schedule and my mind keeps getting distracted. 

The feeling of just don't feel like studying. and this exaccebates when I met some questions or concepts that I do not understand. And I have no clue of who to ask. Then I will want to switch to another task which I don't really wanna touch on (as in even though I can do some parts but I do not have the time to complete everything)....

Holidays ended and tomorrow will be the last weekday for Week 2 ever since new semester has started.

I don't know why I'm still stuck in that 'vicious cycle' of misery and being so pessimistic about everything. Literally everything and not just referring to a particular matter. Last week of school was still alright as all the lectures began with introduction, just like a roller coaster ride that prepares you from the ground to the peak where hell lots of exciting and adrenaline rush moments are waiting to come. I just remembered that I came back to hostel on a Sunday late afternoon and whoosh! it goes, the date on my computer screen has differed from Sunday for four days. Time really flies, no joke.

没有

我没有想过放弃

我发现之前在这里写的太过情绪化了。

或许我们都没那个意思。

Am I ready for a relationship?

Or simply this is not the kind I wanted?

我又来这里了。

结果发现我在这里分享的事情，不快乐的比较多。。天啊，我的快乐呢？

本来吃了一顿还算不错的晚餐（因为今天的鱼片还好）。

结果。

昨晚我很不正常，压力很像到了极限。还好有他。。

他来找我。