十一翎的天空

Holidays ended and tomorrow will be the last weekday for Week 2 ever since new semester has started.

I don't know why I'm still stuck in that 'vicious cycle' of misery and being so pessimistic about everything. Literally everything and not just referring to a particular matter. Last week of school was still alright as all the lectures began with introduction, just like a roller coaster ride that prepares you from the ground to the peak where hell lots of exciting and adrenaline rush moments are waiting to come. I just remembered that I came back to hostel on a Sunday late afternoon and whoosh! it goes, the date on my computer screen has differed from Sunday for four days. Time really flies, no joke.

Tutorial questions, assignments are already posted up on the platform and lecture content are just..yeah, lead in. 

Things start to get confusing for me.

I don't understand what is it going on.

Etc.....

Even though today I had brought up all the possible factors to Ely that have caused me to be in such distress, I have no idea where to start to make things better.

I know I have to catch up a lot in my work. Oh fuck, my brain please cooperate with me and think faster, will you?

I know I have to have a talk with boyfriend about our relationship. Whuuuuddd? Yeah.

I know I have to enjoy the time with my family for they will always be the ones who will support me in any case.

I know...

BUT WHY IS IT THAT I'M HESITATING TO DO EVERYTHING.

Smile, sy. 

Smile, remember?

Smile.