十一翎的天空

Nah it was really the first paper for the year but for this semester instead. 

I screwed it. 

When I looked at the questions, I thought I can do because the information given was explicit. However, I was stunned upon by the questions as my mind was full of 'is it this way?' 'can i use this method?' 'what do i have?' 'really this way?' etc. In the thought process I had too many doubts and then I realised that my learning for this module still covers many gaps. In other words, I wasn't that prepare to nail the paper down which I thought I could have. In fact, while I revised for this module, I sort of take it for granted, flipping one page of notes to another, thinking and assuming that I've understand and know what I am supposed to. Apparently, based on the performance for this exam, it's a big cross. Even helpsheet seems not to help much because yeah there were theories etc right smack in front of my eyes but I didn't know which is for which, i.e. don't know how to apply. While I'm really disappointed in myself for not putting even more hard work and for the slack and complacency, I amd glad that I could jot my feelings down and hopefully learnt from this experience so that such thing will not happen again.

I guess another reason why I felt disappointed is because I wanted to apply for minor in management and this module actually helps to fulfill one of the criteria. However, since I got a feeling that I will not be able to do reasonably well for it, this leads me to re-consider my intention again. Afterall business modules are more competitive and the rest of its modules would be of similar situation (steep bell curve even if I do okay). As such, if I really wanna take up this minor, I cannot S/U this module in this semester's result. That goes saying my GPA will be affected pretty much. Perhaps for now I should just take it lightly and see what lies ahead for me. Certainly I still have the control in my hand and what I can do now is: concentrate and prepare well for my next few papers, as well as thinking of the possible paths during the summer.

At least I know what is my next action.

Hopefully at least a C for this module.

All the best to me! :)